Last night my husband and I were hanging out with a group of friends and we made a running joke about how I hate change. Then, a friend of mine asked how I can do what I do in a profession where change is constant. Good question. It’s probably one of the reasons I continue to have anxiety issues but, I’m also really stubborn and can’t stand feeling “limited” by myself or others. More often than not, it’s my stubbornness that wins out. No one is going to tell me I can’t do something, not even me. Our prompt was “better things to come” and it prompted me to write about this back and forth I have with myself about wanting to experience everything and fearing what “everything” will bring. I’m constantly dealing with fears and phobias but, considering that twelve years ago I had moments of sheer terror at the thought of leaving my house, I think I’m doing pretty well. Conquering my fears has been a running theme in my life. And that can be difficult because I’m pretty comfortable with some of them. Odd that fears can make you feel safe, isn’t it?

THANK YOU! So, I was super anxious about releasing last weeks podcast but thanks to the hundreds of people who visited the page and listened! And super thanks to everyone who downloaded the song, donated money that will go to Joyful Heart Foundation and shared links for the No More campaign. It is so important that people speak out and let go of the shame associated with being a survivor of sexual assault or domestic violence. The more we all speak up and support survivors, the less we empower perpetrators. They thrive on being able to get away with it because the burden of proof is on the victim. As a friend said last night, it’s a shame that people who get busted for transporting weed often get more jail time than sex offenders. It happens all too often. Spread the word. Click here for the free download post including lyrics jpg. :

This week’s song:

Better Things To Come
free podcast download here:
http://lauramariemusic.com/words/blog/podcast-13-better-things-to-come

I’m not just sitting hereI’m gathering the nerve to go another mile
Keep pacing to and fro but try to understand
you know it takes a while, a while
It’s not the lights or the attention or
the truth that I am hiding from
It’s just the panic in the process and
the fear of better things to come, to come, to come

‘Cause I want to scale the walls
I want to see it all
Just let me get a running start
I want to go too far
I want to rise above
Let go and land in love
I want to ride a shooting star
Right into your heart

I’m not adverse to going first
or being where no one has been before
the curiosity takes hold of me
It’s worse than what’s behind the door, the door
But, nothing ventured nothing gained is what they say
It’s how the race is won
It’s just the panic in the process and
the fear of better things to come, to come, to come

‘Cause I want to scale the walls
I want to see it all
Just let me get a running start
I want to go too far
I want to rise above
Let go and land in love
I want to ride a shooting star
Right into your heart

Time is wasting
The world is waiting
My hands are shaking
My heart is racing
I can take it
Jump and make it
All the way from here
to where you are
Cause I want to scale the walls
I want to see it all
Just let me get a running start
I want to go too far
I want to rise above
Let go and land in love
I want to ride a shooting star
Right into your heart

©LauraMarieMusic 2014

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