Podcast #47: You Know What You Know

You’re not the boss of me!!! That pretty much sums it up. Seriously, though, there are many people I take advice from so, it’s not like I think I have all the answers. I know I don’t. And, I don’t think a lot of people would describe me as close-minded. Stubborn, yes. Close-minded, no. I also know, extremely well, where I fall short. In fact, I often get hung up on my shortcomings so, I really don’t need someone to point them all out to me under the guise of being helpful when they’ve only just met me or seen some very small portion of my life. But, let me distinguish here between someone who is genuinely wanting to share their knowledge and someone who wants to simply appear knowledgeable. There’s a difference. And, the worst of the latter is one who actually gets a charge out of criticizing me thinking it will make me want to work to please them. It goes like this:

“I really would like to talk to you about your music. (very flattering tone here). There’s so much I want to ask you.” They work in numerous flattering comments and then BOOM! An open handed insult. Oh, but they are just so HONEST they can’t help themselves. Then, back to compliments. Then another insult. Pure manipulation. Perhaps, if I were younger and less experienced (and, believe me, I have been) I would feel like I should work to become better in their eyes.

This song (demo) is a very sincere “SCREW YOU” to that.

photo by Kimberly Scott

Download: http://lauramariemusic.com/words/blog/podcast-47-you-know-what-you-know

You Know What You Know

Do I look lost
A little confused
Is it my eyes
Or your point of view
So wise
You’ve taken my case
analyze and evaluate
If I was just a little more,
I was just a little more

Shiny white knight
Stand in the wings
Full of advice
And a few other things
So nice
Like what you see
Standby
you were just thinking
If I was just a little more,
I was just a little more
like you

But, I think I’m enough
I think I’m ok
Just as I am
A genuine legend
in my own time
and in my own way
follow the voice in my head
not the words that you say
‘cause you know what you know but
you don’t know what you don’t know
you know what you know but
you don’t know what you don’t know
and you don’t know me

All kidding aside
with a straight face
Tell me how you’d do it perfectly
Put in my place
So right. If only I knew
I could make up for the things
that you’ll never do
If I was just a little more,
I was just a little more

But, I think I’m enough
I think I’m ok
Just as I am
A genuine legend
in my own time
and in my own way
follow the voice in my head
not the words that you say
‘cause you know what you know but
you don’t know what you don’t know
you know what you know but
you don’t know what you don’t know

and you don’t know me
this look in my eyes
and what’s on my mind
the cause of my grief
you don’t know me
the song that I hear
the worst that I fear
or what I believe
you don’t know me
at my highest
or at my lowest
If I’ve learned anything

It’s you know what you know
but you don’t know what you don’t know
you know what you know
but you don’t know what you don’t know – oh-oh
yeah, you know what you know
but you don’t know what you don’t know
and you don’t know me
©lauramariemusic2014

Podcast #46 – Look Up

It is really easy to focus on all the reasons you can’t do something. You have the fear of failure on the one hand and the fear of success on the other. I know fear of success sounds kind of silly but, it’s there. With success comes change and the raising of expectations and going way, way, way beyond your comfort zone. For someone like me, who is apt to set up my own tiny little fortress of solitude wherever I land, it’s threatening to leave the safety zone. I tend to stay a little too long in one place and wait until it becomes unbearable before I break and run for the next plateau. So, count this as one of my ‘cheer yourself up, self encouragement’ songs. I’m actually in a good place right now. This song was written for week #46 and its week #48 now. 🙂

Now that the 52 week podcast (a full year of songs!) is almost up, I’m looking forward to doing an hour long online performance via Concert Window on NOVEMBER 12TH for you! The first 5 people who sign up get to choose a song from one of my solo albums or this podcast for me to sing (except for: Hard Rain or Suedehead). And, you can pay what you want for access so, yay! The first 20 people who sign up (including the first 5) will get a signed and personalized postcard from yours truly to anywhere in the world. That’s right! I’m paying for postage 🙂
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Look Up 
Under the covers, your favorite place to hide
Safer than facing the world that lurks outside
Losing the waiting game
Nothing ventured and stay the same

Bright is the light that you’re doubting with the curtains drawn
How many tears are you counting while the sun burns on
every chance you could take
to welcome the light of the day

Look up, I know it’s hard to face it
Look up, I hear what you’re saying
But turn your worried head around
Look up
Down and out but bound to rise above

You want it so bad you can taste it, well, go on and cry
None of your tears will be wasted if you want to try
The only ground you can lose
Is on a path that you never choose

Look up, I know it’s hard to face it
Look up, I hear what you’re saying
But turn your worried head around
Look up
Down and out but bound to rise above

The first day of the rest
Best days of your life
Going after it all
after all this time
And even if it goes wrong
Everything is alright
everything that you are
goes on and on and on

Look up, I know it’s hard to face it
Look up, I hear what you’re saying
But turn your worried head around
Look up
Down and out but bound to rise above

Look up, there’s a light up above you
Look up, look up look up
Look up, there’s a light up above you
©lauramariemusic2014

Podcast #45 – You’re Right

I keep looking at this song sideways. I challenged myself to write with these different rhythms and I’m pretty sure I hate this particle one. Haha! The prompt was “break the shackle” and there was so much I could write about shackles, freedom, and such but, at this point, I’m being obstinate. If the prompt is one thing, all of a sudden, I don’t want to write about that. I’m being difficult which makes the whole process more difficult. Writing, re-writing, banging my head against the desk 🙂 So, the song ended up being about always facing new territory while being with someone who is your complete opposite but perfect compliment. Never a dull moment. But, I think the song is a little strange ..who knows? You may get something interesting out of it. If you do, I’d be interested to know what that is. Please, write me.

Only 7 more weeks of podcasts and only 6 more to write for me. Wow! Then, I sit down and start writing for the new album. Yay! And, as luck would have it, I’m feeling very boosted and inspired after spending a wonderful weekend at the Dripping Springs Songwriters Festival (basically, songwriter heaven in the Texas hill country). It was such an affirming experience. I played a total of 7 times and, each audience was incredible. I also had the pleasure of hearing so many gifted songwriters…my mind is blown. Here I am pictured with Tom Meny, Shannon Lee and Diana Corcoran. 

photo by Christopher Herrera

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You’re Right 
On a scale of one to ten
Everything I feel
On an upward trend
Tell me if it’s real
Is the sky above my head
Cause I know I took a hit
It hurts just to admit it

And all I know
Is stars are spinning around my head
Touch and everything is go
It might have started when you said
You’re right, you’re right
We’re never gonna be the same
You’re right, you’re right
But that’s why I love you anyway

Am I less or greater than
The choices that I make
Infinite or bound
to make the same mistake
Can the sum of all my parts
Break the shackle and the chain
Of events and/or happenstance

All I know
Is stars are spinning around my head
Touch and every thing is go
It might have started when you said
You’re right, you’re right
We’re never gonna be the same
You’re right, you’re right
But that’s why I love you anyway

Kind and calm and good and patient
Love, desire and inspiration
More than I could ever hope to find

All I know
Is stars are spinning around my head
Touch and every thing is go
It might have started when you said
You’re right, you’re right
We’re never gonna be the same
You’re right, you’re right
But that’s why I love you anyway
©lauramariemusic2014

Podcast #44 – Love For You Now

Everything that was supposed to happen happened. Acceptance. I think we often see conflicts as really horrible things but, they are wonderful for directing our course. Getting through them, over them or around them shapes and molds us. More than anything, this song is about looking back in gratitude for the conflicts that put me right where I happen to be. Acknowledging that pain is part of the process doesn’t mean we have to like it though. Ran out of time and had to do a quick one take recording for you. You’ll get the idea though. 🙂

Had a really sweet experience this past weekend. I had no idea what to expect for my first time at J&Os Cantina but it turned into a beautiful listening room vibe for me and I’m grateful for the experience and for the musicians who were also part of the night. Also, I got to wear what my son refers to as my “jazzy pants” (pictured below). Good times.


Photos by Amy Gentel

Download: http://lauramariemusic.com/home/blog/podcast-44-love-for-you-now
Love For You Now
If we could go back to the beginning
Would you change a thing
Knowing we’d have a different ending
I guess it only matters if and when
Someone could rewind us back to then

The best and worst of us
in equal measure
It’s what we get for putting
all our separate parts together
breaking up our hearts
to make some space
leaving all our pieces out of place

I got nothing for the pain
No, I’m just waiting it out
I got nothing but a prayer
for perfect timing
and love for you now, love for you now

Time and time again,
so much for learning
It’s like we’re meant to
play this on repeat , the tables turning
Funny how we play the way we do
Either hurting me or hurting you

I got nothing for the pain
No, I’m just waiting it out
I got nothing but a prayer
for perfect timing
and love for you now, love for you now
and love for you now, now, now, now ,now

I just wish the rest of us
would hurry, hurry
I just wish the rest of us
would hurry, hurry
I just wish the rest of us
would hurry, hurry
Are we still hurting?

I got nothing for the pain
No, I’m just waiting it out
I got nothing but a prayer
for perfect timing
and love for you now,
love for you now, now, now, now , now
I got nothing but love
I got nothing but love
I got nothing but love
for you, for you now
Now, now, now , now, now, now
 ©lauramariemusic2014

Podcast #43 – Open Wide

“Beyond Repair” was the prompt. I thought about the things in my life that have been completely destroyed, all the pain and heartache and blessing. 🙂 Really, sometimes things have to be broken apart so better things can take place. We aren’t meant to live perfect lives. We have to open up, take chances, risk ourselves. I’ve had a fair share of heartbreak. No one is exempt. We all get broken and we are all involved in “breaking” other people. The whole process is really a gift. It destroys the world we’ve built up around us to get to the sweet and glorious center of us all: pure love. We can keep trying to cover it back up again, trying to protect ourselves from feeling any pain but, I think we are meant for a more intense experience. I’m really trying to not hold back because of fear. Believe me, I have that voice that gives me all the reasons I shouldn’t try, shouldn’t trust, shouldn’t care. I’m learning to ignore it, let myself hurt if it comes to that because, there’s always something beautiful on the other side. I’m beginning to see that it doesn’t have to hurt every time.

Download: http://lauramariemusic.com/words/blog/podcast-43-open-wide
Open Wide

All the things you thought you were
All the things you thought were right
Sell them like the furniture
Worse for wear now under hard light
Fading with the stars
Up against the sky

All the things you want to say
And everything, you say, is just fine
Take it like a man, take a stand
Take a real hard line
Building up the wall
No one could ever climb

But, the best laid plans
Aren’t yours to make
Put your heart in someone’s hands
And let them break it
Open wide
There’s nothing like that brilliant light
Open wide
it’s only gonna come from the inside
Open wide
Everything gets broken
To be purified

All the things you promise to
Promise me, you won’t play fair
No one wants an easy route
They just want to know you care
There’s nothing you can do
It’s all beyond repair

‘Cause the best laid plans
Aren’t yours to make
Put your heart in someone’s hands
And let them break it
Open wide
There’s nothing like that brilliant light
Open wide
it’s only gonna come from the inside
Open wide
Everything gets broken
To be purified

Nothing that you’re holding back
Can stand against the tide
It all comes tumbling down
It’s only time, you know it’s time

So, open wide
There’s nothing like that brilliant light
Open wide
it’s only gonna come from the inside
Open wide
Everything gets broken
To be purified
©lauramariemusic2014

Podcast #42 – Still In The Game

Listening back to this and I here all the places where I need the song to breathe. I think I’ll work on that. The prompt was “Still in the Game” and it brought to mind this perpetual game we play thinking there are winners and losers, that we aren’t all the same, that we have to be better or worse than someone to know our place in the world. That’s a freakin’ lie. And I say this while I am currently competing to be on the stage at Lincoln Center. To me, that’s an opportunity, a chance to find a larger audience and NOT some indicator that I’m better or worse than any one of the hard working, talented artists who also have that same chance. Competition is best when it encourages you to be the best of who you are without the need to “beat” someone else. That’s really the only way I can look at “contests” and participate. I don’t like to feel the separation that occurs with jealousy. I don’t want to fear my fellow artists. I want to admire and encourage them because they inspire me and because I could really use that same kind of support. We all could. Theodore Roosevelt said, “Comparison is the thief of joy” and I do believe it can be. Joy comes when you realize the incredible beauty that’s in each individual expression of who we are. Something to celebrate.

So, if you haven’t yet, this is the last week to vote. I could use your support too! My songs, along with those of the other 9 artists are at the following link. You probably have to scroll around to find my songs “Honest” (video) and “Crazy” (audio only) and I hope you do. I’m really proud of these two. They both really moved me when I wrote them and I hope they move you.


Or copy and paste: https://www.newsong-music.com/contest/southwest/

Still In The Game 

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There’s no use jumping ahead
You end up right where you are
Give as good as you get
Everybody in step
All you weapons of war
Come to question in time
maybe you got it all wrong
Do you wake up at night in a sweat
Is the lie of not good enough gone
Not good enough gone

Throw it all away
It all sounds the same
You can make it up again
But who do you blame
When you leave yourself in play
Still in the game

Loathe to decide
You love or you lose
Cause every crooked man
Walks a crooked mile
It’s your burden of proof
Take a long and hard look
At the toll that it takes
Do you wake up at night in a sweat
Does the lie not keep you awake
Not keep you awake

Throw it all away
It all sounds the same
You can make it up again
But who do you blame
When you leave yourself in play
Still in the game

I am open and I am listening
Is that your vision coming through
Still unopened, boxed and broken
Is that your version of truth

Throw it all away
It all sounds the same
You can make it up again
But who do you blame
If you always find yourself
still in the game
still in the game….
 ©lauramariemusic2014

Podcast #41: Diggin’ On Swine (Rap-ish)

Actual quote from Matt Barker: ” That was exactly what a laura marie rap would sound like”. To be fair, it’s only “rap-ish”.

It’s moments like this when I think, “Why did I agree to share all these songs?” Before you even say it, YES, I know how ridiculous this is. First of all, I don’t rap and probably shouldn’t. I don’t have near the attitude for it. But, I have been known to write a funny song or two. My most notable was Paris which made the Southwest Regional Folk Alliance compilation. My prompt then was “Please, get excited for Paris” and I wrote it about Paris Hilton who had just been busted for cocaine possession. Fun little tune though it could still use some work on song structure.

So, the prompt for this one was “Diggin’ On Swine” and, not wanting to write about bacon, I had no idea what to do until an opportunity presented itself. A particular rapper, who shall remain nameless, decided to post comments on my music page about his music. That’s annoying. And, rappers aren’t the only ones who do it. In the past, I’ve had other singer-songwriters comment on my show postings with things like, “If you can’t make her show, come see me play…” which is really just bad form. It’s rude. Yes, we’re all trying to get an audience and I am grateful when my fellow artists help spread the word. I also try to help as many fellow artists as I can but, I have to consider my audience. I could be totally off base but, I have no reason to believe that the people following my page are huge rap fans. They may be. I mean, I like a certain amount of rap music. I even own some. There is certainly an art to it that I really appreciate. And, no, I don’t think it’s my calling but, I felt like calling this person out a bit. I will absolutely NOT reveal who he is because I have no intention of embarrassing anyone….except myself…apparently.

Seriously, the closer I get to publicly posting this, the more painful it is. Why did I promise to do this? Somebody stop me…


Download: http://lauramariemusic.com/home/blog/podcast-41-diggin-on-swine-rap-ish
Diggin On Swine
Living large with the credit cards
Going off about the girl that you got
On the side, you won’t apologize
Cause its all a part of your fledgling art
Getting in my face with your off hand song
Making it up as you go along
There’s nothing wrong with that
It’s just not where I’m at
So, why don’t you

Stop trying to step all over my lines
Trying to drown me out with your rhymes
I’ve got plenty of mine
If you want to take the spotlight
Do it on your own dime
Stop trying to hit me up with that mess
Needs some work but that’s none of my business
Got to pull your own. If you won’t
Please, don’t drag on me, no

No sir, I’m not genre dependent
I set my course to transcendent
Music with nothing to prove,
No need to defend it
I know, you just want some attention
But what you need is intervention
You can’t force feed
If I hear it and I like it maybe then you’ll get a mention

Stop trying to step all over my lines
Trying to drown me out with your rhymes
I’ve got plenty of mine
If you want to take the spotlight
Do it on your own dime
Stop trying to hit me up with that mess
Needs some work but that’s none of my business
Got to pull your own. If you won’t
Please, don’t drag on me, no

Instead of posing with those flashy cars
And fabricating like a superstar
Work hard
Maybe then I’ll know who you are
Diggin’ on swine
Yeah I thought I’d better drop that line
It’s a matter of requirement
It’s a discipline
If you don’t want to work those words then
Stop tryin’ Stop tryin’ Stop tryin’ Stop tryin’ tryin
Stop tryin’ Stop tryin’ Stop tryin’ Stop tryin’ tryin

Stop trying to step all over my lines
Trying to drown me out with your rhymes
I’ve got plenty of mine
If you want to take the spotlight
Do it on your own dime
Stop trying to hit me up with that mess
Needs some work but that’s none of my business
Got to pull your own. If you won’t
Please, don’t drag on me, no

Going off on your comment spree
Ima sit here and hit delete
I think you’re peeing on the wrong tree
Yeah
Tryin’ to lift your leg on me
Aw, hell no
©lauramariemusic2014