The only sane response (blog)

photoHear me out. Love doesn’t seem like the answer right now, I know. I’m outraged. I’m disgusted. I’m sad but, mostly, I’m angry. This is always my reaction to sudden emotional or physical pain. I have a temper and when something strikes me painfully, my first urge is to seek and destroy that which has caused me pain. Call it survival mode. It’s on. And, I can justify it all day long. People would understand, sympathize and even encourage it because they are angry too.

But, it’s insanity. Temporary insanity because we know from experience that, when it’s over, we’ll find that retaliation will not cure the world and anger serves only itself.

Here we are together in this world where, somewhere, children are being taught to fight in wars, women are being raped, people are threatened with nuclear annihilation and another bomb goes off…and another…for no valid f*cking reason because there could never possibly be one. And, our hearts are broken again. Sudden pain. I’m in survival mode again.

I come from a family of runners. We love to run. We enjoy training together, sharing the experiences and encouraging one another. I’ve run two marathons and several halfs and plan to continue. Runners are awesome people (if I do say so myself) who challenge themselves to reach beyond their pain, to do better than they did last time around, to improve continuously. I can’t imagine a heart so devoid of compassion, with such lasting hatred, that would plot to kill people at a race at the moment of accomplishment over their own struggles. I can’t imagine it anywhere… in any circumstance.  That’s an insanity I can not speak to.

What I can speak to is my response in the face of that insanity. My hope is that justice be served and healing come quickly but that my only action in response will be to LOVE MORE and to do it like a runner; better than I did before, challenging myself to reach beyond the pain and care for, forgive, help, encourage, smile, hug, hold dear, make amends, show gratitude, serve, smile, have compassion and improving continuously.

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.” – Martin Luther King, Jr.

Studio: Love You Like Me

I can love you. How can I love you? Like me. Like I would love you. That’s it.


You know, ever since Twitter, I’m having trouble thinking for more than 140 characters at a time. That includes spaces so….yeah.
Let me attempt to break the new threshold.

I’ve been in the studio for the last three days tracking one of three songs for the next CD. I love the people I’m working with. I love the things that come out of their brains. It’s not as messy as it sounds and all that stuff gives this song the life I wanted it to have. We still have a few things to add but it’s heart is beating. The list of people that have been a part of the process so far:

Joe Cortez, IV – Drums deluxe
Jason Ybarbo – Bass and brilliance
Robert Cherry – Electric Guitar and overall good feeling
Wes Harllee – Acoustic Brainstorming
Tommy Medina – Engineering stuff
Anthony Diaz De Leon – Major Engineering stuff
Mack Damon – Music Evolutionist

Can you imagine? If you can’t, here are some pictures from the session:

If you are curious about what this is going to sound like, visit my 12 Seconds page for a preview:

12 Seconds of Lovin’